Friday, September 24, 2010
Camping was a lot of fun! Beth was a little handful but we had her under control. Both nights Beth and I went to bed early, I had planed to lay with her until she fell asleep and get back up and hang out for a little while but the first night I think I may have been asleep before she was, and the second night I was having some stomach pains so I layed their waiting for them to go away and fell asleep. but that's ok, because we still had fun during the days sitting around listening to music, and a comedian,who's name I cant recall, and just bullshitting we had a lemon peach cake i made and Dyanne and I both decided we didn't like the canned icing because you just dont have either the control or the maneuverability of the decorating bag, and for those of us who have become used to the bag the can just sucks! the second night the planned desert had been flavored marshmallows for s'more making, but Ryan came with a much better idea and made us all cobbler, i was laying down by the time it was done but they saved me some and Beth, Justin, and my self had some for breakfast instead of the planed bars. Jason and Nate also came home that weekend and joined us Saturday night that was fun! We all really needed this weekend, especially mom with everything that has been going on with Cherokee, and because Sheldon is such and awesome person he even stayed at our house that weekend with the dog, to give mom even more of a stress relief, it was nice not having to worry about the dog at all. this weekend is packed full, we have Mabon which I'm hoping will be lots of fun, then Sunday were going out to aunt Joyce and uncle Dave's house for an early dinner or even late lunch...either way you want to look at it, then were going to Dy's house to watch a show have some dinner(if were hungry) and play rock band, I plan on wearing my rock band shirt that Dy made me! Monday I'm gonna have roger call on his Medicaid account and get every thing with that worked out, because Beth needs her Medicaid. I still need a dresser for her clothing, but I'm going to work on getting the bed room completely ready for the baby, its gonna be hard without the dresser but I'll make it work some how...I hope... It's getting so close, only 36 more days left and we've still got to work on getting everything ready, the closer it gets the more i wish it was easier to get this house clean and all the dog hair under control, I kind of wish we had access to the carpet cleaner of Alie's because it was great for getting the hair out of the carpets and that would be a big help with the dog hair, i just wish i could find the replacement battery for my Shark vacuum because its a good little vacuum for every day use but it doesn't have the battery power any more to do the hole house every day, it used to but the battery is 3 years old, oh well i guess we can do a different room every day and keep the hair controlled that way. if we can keep up with that, so far were having a hard time keeping the dishes cleaned every day. well after the baby's born im going to try to keep us all on track for the baby's sake.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
The potential father of this child, the one who we were, with out a doubt positive was the father told me a while back that he wanted a paternity test, other than him their is only one other possible father, he is very unlikely but still non the less he he would get tested, and I felt he deserved to know, so for the past few months I have been trying to get a hold of him to tell him that he would be tested. About 3 nights ago he got a hold of us to tell us that he had a surgeon mess up with with him, so badly now that he only has a few years if that. I told him that night that their was a possibility that Danica is his, he is so excited that their is even the slightest chance that he not only wants her to be his but he has asked if he could still claim her as his even if she wasn't. I am over joyed that Danica he wants to be her father, even if only for a short time. I would rather her have some one who wants her be her father rather than some one who doesn't. I have told glen that if he still want to get the paternity test and be a part of her life then he need to get a hold of me, I asked for a response by the end of the week but I have decided that I will give him until I actually fill out the birth certificate, if he cant find 5 minutes to text me saying "yes I'd like to still do the test" then he truly doesn't care about her at all, and at that point I will be putting Sheldon's name on it without a test. almost every one I have talked to think that I am being very fare to every one involved, except for one who I thought was my best friend, she thinks that I'm being a bitch for even considering of putting Sheldon's name on the certificate in the first place. I guess in situations like these you find out who your true friends, the sad thing is I know why shes all pissed its because shes jealous of the friendship Sheldon and I have and how close we are, shes even more jealous that he and I were ever together and even more of the idea that their is a slight chance Sheldon and I get back together, after I get my life straightened out. I think its rather pathetic of her honestly she has a wonderful husband who would do anything for her and 2 beautiful little boys, she has a rather nice life as a matter of fact, of course she wont know that until she looses it, shes on the verge of me telling her to fuck off, until at least she can pull her head out of her ass, because I'm really getting tired of her judging me, when shes the one who goes out and cheats on her husband and flirts with other guys, and thinks her life is a curse instead of a blessing, if it weren't for the fact that I have strong morals and I believe in never breaking a promise, unless some ones life is in danger or they are breaking the law, I would tell her husband, but I'm not going to be pinned as a "home wrecker" because her morals aren't where they should be. a crisis councilor contacted my mother today, she wants mom and Cherokee to sit down and try to work things out between them, which is going to be a waist of time on every ones part because mom refuses to have a junkie living with us and Cherokee refuses to leave him, so the councilor can talk all she wants but she will just be wasting her breath. on the plus side this weekend were going camping to celebrate both mine and Troy's birthday's and that will be super fun, then next weekend were going to go to our aunt and uncles house for a birthday dinner, performing a Mabon ritual, I'll be doing that one with the help of my very close friend Whitney and it will be her first and only my second ritual with a group so I imagine that it is going to be rather interesting, but it will be fun. then Sunday a night of watching a pilot for a show to see if we like it, and of course Rock Band!! with our new band T-Shirts "I'm your huckleberry" we will also be getting the house ready for the new baby, this next month is going to be so busy, and so much fun, were going to have 2 weddings to go to, Halloween and a birth YAY!!!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Well my life right now would make a pretty interesting soap opera / sit com. combo. this weekend we had Elyssabeth for longer than we normally do because her father wanted her for this weekend, which is fine with me as long as i get her for my birthday dinner, can you believe I'm turning 21!? Any way while she was here my sisters boyfriend(ketchup) had his brother visit them, he was so excited to get to spend time with him, well their evening ended up with my sister sitting in the house getting to know ketchup's family while he sat out side listening to rap and getting drunk because he's jealous of his brother because he is successful, so at some point in the night ketchup took off without saying anything, Cherokee spent the night worrying about him, because he wouldn't answer either her texts or calls, she spent the night at his moms house, about 7 o'clock in the morning he texts her saying hes at the house so she has his mom bring her back into town, now here's where things get out of control, when Cherokee gets down stairs ketchup is sitting on the bed shooting up lortab, at this point Beth is not only awake but has snuck out of the room to go steel a sucker and get into things shes not supposed to. well the shooting up pissed Cherokee off enough that she kicks him out, thank the gods, because were done with his shit! so that night we go to Dy's house to play rock band and get home fairly late Beth and I go straight to bed, mom stays up for a little bit longer, while she is turning off all the lights to go to bed Cherokee and Ketchup show up and unload all of his stuff with the intent of moving him back into the house, obviously mom is having none of it because were not going to lose Beth and Danica because of his drug addiction, so they get in a huge fight and Cherokee decides that if ketchup cant move back in then shes going to move out with him...at the moment we have no clue where she is or what shes doing, last we herd their plan was to move to Las Vegas, but we don't know how that plan has gone, I packed and moved all of her stuff out of her room and have spent the last week turning it into mine and Beth's room its not where i want it to be but its getting their. on the other hand my brother has been trying to keep spirits high by being a dork and it has worked a little, i know that I'm worried about Cherokee and her unborn baby, and I'm sure mom is also worried, but were all doing a fairly good job at hiding it. Today is September 11th nine years ago a terrorist group flew plains into the two towers, I plan on lighting a candle to remember the souls who died and I'm also going to do a heeling spell for the earth. Tomorrow is my birthday and I will be turning 2, now because I'm pregnant I have to wait until yule to actually get drunk, so instead were going to make enchiladas watch the season finally of true blood and play rock band, next weekend were going to go camping to celebrate both mine and troys birthday and the week after that were going to go do dinner with my aunt Joyce and uncle Dave, then head over to Dy's house for a Mabon ritual! this month is all about the birthdays from now on, next month we'll be getting the house really ready for the new baby and of course every witches favorite holiday HALLOWEEN!!! depending on weather or not I'm in the hospital giving birth i get to take Beth trick-or-treating, if I'm in the hospital roger will swing by with her to say hi before they go out, or after depending on how I'm doing. the next few months are going to be a mad rush, but I'm hoping that after the mad rush I can get back into school and getting my life back on track, I realize now that my roller coaster life has just gotten a little more exciting, and I kind of cant wait to see how the ride goes!!